MY ORIGIN STORY

I have to conclude that I'm not sane. I've always tested genius and as the saying goes there is a fine line between that and insanity. There is a fair amount of insanity on both sides of my family. So there is that too.

And yet each of the few people I have shared this with become drawn to my delusion.

This short article is merely how this idea of the Eververse, emergent pixelated time and multiple directional causality entered my mind. I don't want any secrets. I don't want to be pulling the wool over anyone's eyes. I'm not a quantum physicist. I've been reading a lot since this began but that doesn't mean that I understand a fraction of what I've read and I definitely don't understand any of math or theories beyond the abstract level.

This is what it is like to be me right now. I want you to imagine being in a college course. Imagine it is an introductory course just designed to give a very general glossy overview of the subject. Now imagine this course was a requirement and you didn't care at all about the subject. You paid just enough attention not to flunk. Finally imagine that you took that class and had some chapters in a few related classes 35 years ago. And now you are trying to remember, make sense of and explain to others this concept you never had good grasp of to begin with. And now take that last leap into insanity that you are somehow remembering this from some other future person. As I say, Occam's Razor and common sense say I'm crazy. Funny thing is, it doesn't matter.

But that is what it is like to be me. I have these memories I couldn't have of a future class taken by someone else that I am trying hard to remember clearer, comprehend and add conjecture to.

There are a few diagrams and images that are crystal clear and force me to try to get this all down. But most is hazy and fuzzy and wasn't that technical to begin with.

So that is my impossible situation. One that people I respected are having less trouble with than I expected or frankly am having myself.

I needed to get that out there.

I should also point out, I am not a writer. I have a pretty decent vocabulary and sometimes use those words correctly. I have a fairly adequate grasp of grammar but am often sloppy in my sentence construction. I love being folksy or quirky. I take pleasure in an unusual or awkward turn of phrase. I adore long run on sentences. I do not think, and therefore don't write, linearally. You have no idea the effort I, and others, have put into trimming down and carving out my asides, tangients and extraneous comments. I love commas a little too much. Spellcheck is my best friend.

I also love a quick quip, often where it is distracting and not relevant.

None of the above befits an undertaking such as this. But you're stuck with me.

I should further point out there are three 'sources' of information included here:

1. my poor understanding of what I have been able to find on current science
2. those hazy memories I couldn't possibly have
3. my own conjectures filling in the blanks.
   

I will refer to the source of those 'memories' as 'Sid'. I know no Sids which makes it less confusing to me. I'll try to make note when it is my conjecture and when something is a reference to existing science.